Hannah ada adik

Hari ni Harraz dah lapan hari. Sejak adik lahir, saya sangat rindu nak peluk Hannah kuat-kuat,nak cium Hannah banyak-banyak, nak gomol-gomol Hannah sampai gelak-gelak.
Betul, saya sangat rindu moments tu semua. Kalau dulu kita selalu main sama-sama sampai Hannah gelak seronok sangat. Saya rindu nak tgk Hannah tido lasak pusing satu katil.
Bukan saya tak sayang Harraz, saya sayang cuma perasaan kesian dekat Hannah.
Mommy tak nak Hannah rasa mommy tak sayang kakak.
Pagi tadi saya dapat tido peluk Hannah. Rasa la lega sikit, tapi tak puas.
Tak baik ke saya ada perasaan macam ni?
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cuti!

Banyak tak ter-update tapi malas nak meng-update. What can I say is sekarang dalam mode quarantine for long distance travel and red alarm alert has put on. It could be at anytime and anywhere.

I have planned to start my maternity leave effectively by next Monday. Hoyeh!!! Cuti... :D

Preparation not yet completely done. Sebab tu saya cuti awal so that I can packing. Cuti jugak sebab saya nak rehat get my body and soul ready for delivery soon. Instead of body rest, I also need my quality time staying alone at home for mengaji Quran and baca Yaasin as much as I can.
Honestly speaking, kalau tak mak ni sibuk dengan Hannah, her husband, rumah tangga dan kerja. Who should you blame? Yourself!

Jom tido! Tomorrow gonna be my last day work. Of course there's many things to clear up so I need more energy. Tata!
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Dear painful please run away!

I'm in pain. Seriously painful. Bukan tahap rasa nak nangis je tapi memang dah meraung.
Kalau ikut due ada lagi sebulan, but I hardly cannot immagine myself to stay this way for another one month. Seminggu sekarang pun Allah SWT je yang tau.
Doakan saya dan baby kuat dapat bertahan until the right time comes.
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My Toddler.

 Your toddler's increasing control over her hands means that your hands may be even fuller than usual. She'll poke and prod everything that interests her, which probably means anything within reach. Your toddler may scribble with a crayon, grab a spoonful of kaya, or rub her fingers in tomato sauce just to see what happens. Though you may be all too familiar with the outcome - more cleaning up for you - remember that your child learns something about the consequences of her actions from every one of her messy experiments.

 Owhh my goodness apa yg Babycenter ni cakap so so and soooo true.

Tangan dia lagi cepat dari apa yang kita jangka. End-up all will become very messy and untidy. Sape yang kena kemas balik?? Who else... Mommy la.

Semalam masa nak bagi Scott Emulsion Hannah tepis habis tumpah sebotol lepas tu buat masker sapu kat muka, jadi shampoo kepala.. Rasa-rasa boleh marah tak??? Ya Allah kan ke hanyir bau minyak ikan tu Tuhan je la yang tau. Tapi Hannah ni macam dah tegar je dengan bau hanyir tu. Aiyarkkk...

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Al Fatihah - Nur Qalesya Amani.

Saya sedih, saya menangis.

Walaupun bukan anak saya, tapi saya teramat sedih. Sunggu-sungguh saya menangis.

Tak terbayang kalau saya di tempat mereka.

Sungguh berat ujian yang Allah beri kepada mereka tapi betul, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.. Allah tak kan uji kita apa yang hambanya tak mampu nak tanggung.

Berat mata yang memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul. Tapi semua yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya. InsyaAllah. 

Anak sulung yang dikandung ibunya selama 10 bulan, dinantikan dan diraikan kelahirannya tiba-tiba sakit bertarung nyawa di ICU dah hayatnya hanya mampu bertahan sehingga usianya dua bulan. 

Ya Allah, saya doakan semoga sahabat ku cekal menghadapi dugaan-Mu, semoga bayi kecil itu menyambut ayah dan ibunya di syurga kelak. 

Bila saya tengok je gamba baby tu berjurai air mata saya terkenangkan keadaan dia yang tenat pada usia yg sangat kecil. Terkenangkan ayah dan ibunya yang kehilangan permata sulung yang sangat-sangat mereka tunggu. 

Al Fatihah untuk Nur Qalesya Amani. InsyaAllah syurga jaminan Allah untuk kamu sayang.. 

To Ani dan keluarga, semoga kalian kuat dan tabah menghadapi ujian-Nya. 

(Memberi keinsafan dan peringatan kepada diri sendiri yang lagha dengan rezeki dan nikmat dari Tuhan.)

Sepanjang kandungan saya kali ni dah dua kali saya menangis teramat sedih dengar berita anak-anak sahabat yang meninggal dunia sewaktu kecil.

Bayi yang dikandung meninggal dunia sewaktu usianya 27 minggu dalam kandungan. Mereka kembar tapi Allah dah takdirkan hayat mereka hanya setakat itu, si ibu sangat kuat melahirkan jenazah anak-anaknya secara normal walaupun dia tahu akan tiada tangisan selepas mereka dilahirkan. 

Juga saya tak tahu adakah saya kuat untuk berdepan dengan situasi itu kalau saya di tempat dia..

Saya berdoa semoga saya selamat melahirkan little adik. 

Semoga little adik sihat, kuat, cukup sifatnya dan membesar sama-sama dengan kakak Hannah jadi anak-anak yang soleh solehah, yang pintar akal fikirannya, yang mulia akhlaknya dan berjaya dunia akhirat. 

Jujur, ni la doa mommy utk anak-anak mommy sayang.

To Mr husband,tolong doakan untuk kami juga ya.

Me also pray semoga saya dan suami dipanjangkan umur untuk membesarkan mereka bersama-sama sebagai satu keluarga sehingga mereka dewasa. (Dalam kata lain tolong panjangkan jodoh kami Ya Tuhan)

Banyaknya permintaan saya..

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Her fav Ephant

Ni la fav toy Hannah. Tak nak yang lain, only this.
I never noticed she was addicted to this Ephant until there's one day she brought Ephant to school and left it there for a night.
I guessed only god knows how suffer she was that night looking for her little Ephant. Semua jadi serba tak kena. Tido tak lena sampai menangis tersedu-sedu. Sedih sangat rupanya.
Dah pagi pun Hannah still cari Ephant. Rindu sgt Hannah dekat Ephant.
Pernah sekali Hannah punggah kain laundry cari Ephant baru dia nak habiskan susu. Mommy dah campak Ephant masuk bakul laundry sebab dah kepam. Sanggup Hannah ambil balik.
Macam mana ntah Hannah bole ada Ephant busyuk ni mommy pun tak tau la.

Crabs done!

I was being unwell for the last few days even until now.

There are blood clotting; kind of blood mucus out of nowhere came out from one side of my nose ( i am not having flu ) then caused me a heavy headache. Bukan pening kepala tapi sakit kot. I just pray it wont getting worse and will cure very soon.

Plus my beloved handphone rosak kena siram air dengan Hannah. Haihh la anak.. Mommy redha je. Nanti repair.

Pity me!

Since last week i was craving for crab. Tapi weekend hari tu dah bawak Hannah jalan-jalan main playground dekat Giant, memang tak nampak la muka ketam segar kalau dah nak petang.

She was pretty happy main lari-lari ramai kawan kat situ. Eventhough dia belum pandai main gelongsor tapi Hannah memang tak duduk diam. Berlari sana sini, gelak-gelak, say bubbye to daddy yang duduk kat tepi playground tu. Mommy happy tengok Hannah happy. Honestly.

Lately ni saya macam rajin nak masak. So menu ketam postpone until semalam. 

Husband ask to buy chicken if sempat but then suddenly i saw a very tempting crabs in the ice box. hehehe... 

I ni tak tau macam mana nak selesaikan ketam so i asked the market boy to settle it.  If my husband around usually he will do everything.

Because of i was having headache, me so lazy to cook any sambal for the crabs. So was planning for masak lemak cili api. Hurmm selalu orang buat ketam dengan nanas, but then also i tak berapa expert nak uruskan Si Nanas, i changed it to green mango instead of pineapple. Malu la nak suruh the market boy jugak yg kupas nanas.

Finished preparing a quick dish for dinner then i made fried potato for little hannah, I just noticed she loved it.

Lauk habis, nasi pun habis. Everything clear tinggal periuk kosong je. Me so happy husband cakap sedap. Nanti buat la lagi. He ate twice for dinner yesterday.

Due to i am not connected to any network or mobile communication at the moment, i tak tau pun hannah dah sampai Seremban ikut nenek pengasuh dia. Makchek tried to called me she needs to visit her farther at Hosp Seremban but then i cannot be reached, she brought along my baby. 

Petang nak pick up Hannah the house was locked and i was curious where were everybody. Dengan muka tebal ketuk rumah jiran sebelah to ask. Owhhh hampa kecewa sedih nya saya rindu dekat Hannah sampai makan pun x mo. Husband balik awal semalam then he said sementara Hannah belum sampai ni makan la dulu siap-siap. Hohhh i tak rasa nak makan waiting for my baby.

Hannah pergi jalan tinggal mommy eh. Sob..sob..

Little adik was dancing-dancing while mommy was having her delicious crabs. Seriously made me laughed suddenly. 

Like he was saying `Thank you mommy, finally i got the crabs. yummm...yummm..'

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What is your ambition?

She loves books.
She loves to dance.
She loves teddy.
She loves to watch cartoon.

Plan 4 anni celeb. How it going to be?

Me: abg bulan depan 2nd wedding anniversary kita. X de mode dalam pantang dah kot kan macam tahun lepas.
Husb: nanti kita pegi la makan kat mana2.
Me: tadi masa tgh drive otw pegi keje dah berangan konon nak pegi jalan2. Bila dah sampai ofis kira balik, masa tu dah ngam2 36 minggu. Takut la pulak ter-bersalin tengah jalan.
Husb: tak pe. Nanti tahun depan kita pegi jalan-jalan.
Me: ooo tahun depan x mengandung dah eh? Ok!
......
:D ;)

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My sleeping beauty princess.

 She kissed me while i was pretending sleeping last night. So sweet la you Hannah! Thank you darl!

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