Baru jentik sikit je..

Semalam fikiran saya sangat kusut. Hanya mampu berserah dan berdoa atas ujian yang datang.

Saya tahu, mereka yang diuji Allah adalah mereka yang Allah sayang.

Juga sebagai teguran dariNYA atas kekhilafan diri yang selalu lupakan DIA.

Bila lama tak ada dugaan yang diberi, takut juga Allah lupakan kita. Semakin kita hanyut, semakin kita lalai dengan keseronokan dunia. 

Setidak-tidaknya bila Allah uji, DIA nak sedarkan kita dari terus leka.

Alhamdulillah..

Pemikiran ini yang terus menguatkan saya.

Alhamdulillah..

Doa saya DIA dengar. Sesungguhnya DIA maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani.

Semoga saya sabar dan kuat untuk menghadapi segala ujian yang mendatang.

Mohon diberi perlindungan kepada anak-anak, suami dan ibu bapa tercinta.

Amin..

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Harraz mengamuk sakan!

Harraz was turned up cranky for almost one hour. Where only me at home, daddy belum balik kerja lagi. At no reason he mengada-ngada I tak tau dia nak apa. Seriously I was in stress tahap gaban. Segala jenis pujuk manja intan berlian, ayat Qursi apa semua tak jalan.

Since dah masuk Maghrib, I pekakkan telinga solat Maghrib dulu. I just sempat doa; 

Ya Allah, bantu aku.. Kau lembutkan lah hati anakku..

Tak sempat nak doa lain Harraz dah datang memanjat melalak-lalak berguling atas sejadah.

As usual, Hannah pun bangun ambilkan Quran for me. Thank you girl. This time I wont skip. I really need the Quran therapy for my son.

What I did was, I read Surah Toha (ayat 1-5). He still keep on tantrum at first, but then.................. 

By the time I habis baca ayat tu kali ke 3, Harraz terus diam. He came and lay down on me sambil tersedu-sedu. I asked kakak to bring Harraz milk. 

Finally, my little handsome boy; Muhammad Harraz Nazhan bin Mohd Amli terus tertido on my lap me still wearing my telekung.

A very big phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww for me!

Alhamdulillah. MasyaAllah... Kuasa Allah SWT.

Thank you very much my dearest GOD!.

Then only Hannah said;

 " Mummy nak makan. Kita lapar la."

Oh my... rasa nak luruh jantung bila anak minta makan. 

Then I told her;

 " kita tunggu daddy balik nanti kita pergi makan ok."

In a mean while, I gave her some biscuits and another round of 11 Oz of milk.

Ermm... bila daddy balik mummy kena sekolah sebab tak bagi anak dia makan. No need to wait for him then.

See Hannah... mummy jugak kena tau.

Uwaaaa.....

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Random mumbles of my little family..

Bila mood ke laut, i pun start to do my baby baru list.

Anybody experienced for cloth diaper? Terasa-rasa macam nak cuba CD dekat baby baru.

Tapi.......................

1. I tak de maid yang nak handle cleaning the CD every day. I am not sure if daddy will approve kalau i put extra loads to his laundry job.

2. Bila tak ada maid, sure kena hantar baby ke nursery. Layan sangat la baby sitter tu nak handle CD. Kalau peepee saja tak pe, is fine terus masuk wet bag. Kalau poopoo tak rajinnya diorang nak bersihkan dulu. 

3. Not worth kot kalau apply CD setakat weekend saja.

Else......................

1. Kita boleh apply CD time baby tido malam at home. + during weekend can consider berbaloi mungkin.

Hurmm ada tak CD size XXL or XXXL? My little Hannah is almost diaper free, tapi terkantoi bila nak poopoo dan tido malam. Tido malam I tak regret sangat la sebab dia pakai sampai pagi. so worth to let the diaper get wet so badly. Kalau just pakai untuk poopoo yang tak berapa saat tu agak membazir juga lah. 

Macam mana ke nak buat bagi Hannah confident nak poopoo dalam toilet bowl. I dah belikan dia toilet seat cantik kaler pink, gambar fish. She only can pee by using it. Hurmmm...

Dia siap cakap "mummy baca la Hannah nak berak ni".

Ok I pun started to read my spell. Non stop ya! When i finished Hannah suruh baca lagi. Apa ingat I baca buku ke.

My magic spell yang tak berapa nak menjadi is,

 "Ya Allah, bagi la Hannah berak atas kerusi fish dia sebab Hannah dah besar. Hannah dah tak nak pakai pampers lagi. Hannah budak pandai. Amin.." 

Tapi bila kena ulang banyak kali still tak keluar jugak, letih la mummy anak. Spell ni menjadi untuk Hannah pee pulak.

Magic words untuk mandi pagi I mujarab. I cakap, 

"Air.. jangan la sejuk sangat. Kesian Hannah, Hannah nak mandi ni." 

Then Hannah pun mandi dengan mindset air tu tak sejuk. Hihihhi...

So when everytime dia nak mandi then air rasa sejuk, she will told me.. Mummy air ni sejuk la.. Then i read my spell for her. =)

Hurmmm while googling for bedung and barut baby, (barut baby yang lama I rasa dah tak cukup kot bilangan asal walaupun anak dah dua, MIA) suddenly came cross into my mind I was thinking where did i put my kids baby tungku. 

Penting tau sebab dalam tu I keep both Hannah & Harraz punya tali pusat plus with all the herbs ingredients yang I tak tau apa nama dia. So is very important to keep the umbilical cord of little adik too. 

Balik nanti cari dalam peti azimat. Harap-harap tak MIA juga.

Well, this pregnant lady is in 23weeks of her third pregnancy.

Bahasa senang is dah nak masuk 6 bulan dah...

Alhamdulillah she still strong to handle both her super genius brilliant hyper toddlers; a working mother and wife to her husband with no maid at home. 

Worth to share, i just got to know the powerful of Surah Al Imran ayat 200.

Trust me.. Cuba hafal dan zikirkan selalu, at anytime especially when you preparing meals for dear husband and kids. I used to read this bila Harraz mengamuk guling-guling. 

Also when they were soundlessly sleeping.

Juga, saya baru tahu doa ni untuk pasangan kita, InsyaAllah, Allah bantu kukuhkan rumahtangga dan kasih sayang suami isteri. Alhamdulillah.. Tak semena-mena kan.. (";) 

"Hai orang yang beriman. Bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu dan bersedialah dan bertakwalah kepada ALLAH supaya kamu berjaya" - ayat 200 Surah Al-Imran.

Pendek je ayatnya dan senang nak hafal. 

Actually ia doa untuk pelembut hati dan perasaan. InsyaAllah I pun amalkan untuk diri sendiri instead of beria nak suami dan anak yang lembut hati, kalau diri sendiri pun tak kuat memang hanyut.

Kalau rajin cuba lah google dan buat juga. Fadhilat Al Quran dengan izin Allah SWT InsyaAllah. 

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

She made me guilty.

Semalam lepas solat Isyak, Hannah yang tengah main sepah-sepah tiba-tiba bangun.

"Mummy kejap ye Hannah ambikkan..." 

Dia pun bangun pergi ke meja bulat. Atas meja bulat tu ada a few books dan Quran. I yang tak tau apa Hannah nak buat terus jerit 

" Aaaaa tak mau.. Tak nak la kakak, nanti bersepah. Mana boleh main Quran berdosa."

"Hannah nak ambik bagi kat mummy la.." Gulpppp!!!!

Erm mummy dah buka telekung la sayang. Esok kita baca ye, malam ni mummy letih sangat.

Berdosanya saya!

Semalam I was sangat-sangat letih. Sampaikan daddy nak pegi keje pagi pun tak sedar. Daddy kejutkan jam dah 6.30am. Makanya daddy pun terlambat sampai ofis pagi ni nak kejarkan shift 7.00 pagi.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Girlfriend boyfriend anniversary.

Hari ni pun anniversary kami.

We have been in love for 6 years today eventhough we have been happily married for 3 years 7 months and 1 day.. Erm... ni la couple i yang paling lama. :)

Calculation ni semua kerja tickers. For sure not me to count ever single day, month and year in every second.

Thank you tickers; you keep remind me every single count i need.

What refresh me 11.11 ialah wedding reception one of my schoolmate. I pegi kenduri dia as a new title i am someone's girlfriend. hihihihi.

Sape sangka from that moment, anak kami pun dah nak masuk tiga orang. Alhamdulillah.

Again... rezeki Allah maha luas.

My dear boyfriend, millions thank you and sorry for everything. 

In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours.
In all the world, there is no love for you like mine.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Sunday morning! eventho it almost midnight. :D

Its Sunday morning people!

I dah puas tido sebab malam tadi pukul 9 semua dah hanyut.

But i guess my kids are still sailing. Tak de gaya nak bangun pun. Sunday kannn..

Macam diorang tau je Sunday tu pe benda. :D

but yet they knew kalau bangun lambat means cuti.

I plan to bring them to makan nasi lemak at warung nearby later. 

Daddy keje, malas pula nak masak breakfast hari ni.

Hannah dah habis exam. Jumaat lepas last day.

Macam periksa UPSR pula kamu exam sampai seminggu.

Tapi last paper was colouring and mummy kena ambil set pensil kaler adik untuk dia. Hannah punya pensil kaler ntah mana2 dah semua.

Bersungguh la daddy tulis nama satu-satu pun terbang jua akhirnya.

Bila tanya cikgu apa Hannah jawab masa exam. Cikgu cakap ada la juga rupa ABC.

Oh well... I yang over under estimate my own daughter. It is not a good practice then.

Ye la masa kita dulu umur dua tahun rasanya pegang pensil pun tak lepas lagi. Agaknya la kot. Kena tanya Ummi how was my progress when i was two.

Next year Hannah akan register pre-school yang betul2. Tahun ni sebab underage Hannah jadi student tumpang saja.

I told daddy instead of Q-dees ada Little Caliph kat sec 7. Tapi a bit far sebab kontra dengan jalan saya nak ke office. So belum decide lagi. Also tahun depan InsyaAllah little strawberry cupcake dah lahir, i pun kena cari nursery yang can handle EBM.

Money..money..mooney...

Jangan risau, rezeki Allah maha luas. Pasti ada jalan atas setiap ketentuan Nya.

Hannah said, " mummy belikan la Hannah baju angry bird macam adik...."

Syahdu je bunyinya.

Tapi memang dia nak sangat baju tido angry bird tu..

And I told husband your daughter ask for baju baru.

Daddy tak sampai hati, balik dari keje kami pun keluar cari baju angry bird kakak.

Ermmmm tak sempat basuh Hannah tido pakai baju tido baru angry bird kaler purple.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

My 3 little H.

Progress Hannah lately ni semua ada semalam, esok, nanti.

"Semalamm daddy bawak kita pergi KFC. Ada gelongsor, ada kuda.. Best kan mummy"

"Bangun! Selamat pagi Cikgu Zura"

"Mummy adik tido tempat daddy ke? Nanti Daddy tido mcm mana?"

"Daddy tak makan ke? Mummy dah masak"

Saya suka refresh semua dialog Hannah. She has been very talkative now. Sometimes I rasa funny and enjoy chatting with her. 

I asked her; "Esok sekolah ye.. Hannah suka duduk kat sekolah ke dekat rumah?"

Sambil angguk; "Hannah suka kat rumah sebab mummy ada" said Hannah.

Mummy nak biskut Tiger! No biskut Tiger. Sekarang ni item wajib yang kena ada dekat rumah is Jacobs Weetameal crackers. Seronok saya tengok anak-anak makan biskut sampai habis. 

Semalam mummy masak nasi ayam. The chicken stocks i letak white radish just an option of veggie and to sweeten the flavour. Tapi tak sangka Harraz loves white radish very much. Dia ratah je sayur yang dalam soup which I potong agak besar each slice.

Juga Harraz makan cekodok dengan tomato sauce. Bajet macam dah besar je. I introduce to kakak, tapi adik yang berkenan. 

My kids love playing blocks tapi everytime main, berterabur satu rumah. I can see playing blocks built their focus and creativities. Even Harraz pun dah pandai nak pasang blocks tinggi2.

I dont mind of buying them many types of blocks; besar, kecik, and colourful. Tapi bila nak kena kutip balik tu rasa nak meroyan.

Harraz ni pengemas sikit orangnya. Tangan, kaki kotor sikit suruh cuci. Jalan atas padang banyak ranting daun2 dia geli. Terjengket2 la berjalan takut kotor kononnya. 

Bila datang mood dia rajin kutip balik and kemas blocks yang berterabur. Tapi kalau mood naughty dia sampai blocks dia buat macam main bom tangan. Nak kena jentik tangan baru berenti.

Hannah pula dia akan kutip bila takut mummy ugut if bersepah mummy buang je bagi kat dog. Nanti Hannah bangun tido mainan dah hilang mummy buang. Baru bersungguh kutip sampai habis.

It is normal bila emak is a doctor at home. Instead of consistently consume same brand of supplements, boleh kering jugak poket ni bila nak top up dengan demand makan KFC playground and other leisure entertainments for the children.

So paling tidak pun Vit-C and fish oil kena ada. Terbaru I try Champs M with lysine chewable. Fish oil as usual Scott's capsules.

Alhamdulillah my kids dah jadi macam routine;

Bila nampak je I pegang botol vitamin melompat macam nak dapat coklat. Siap dah tau berapa biji sorang. 

Pregnancy kali ni saya rasa mcm nak jadi gegirl yang rajin nak menjaga semua benda.. Saya tak kata sebelum ni tak jaga, tapi semuanya ala kadar and mana tersempat je.

Tapi yang ni mood nak berfacial, pergi saloon, makeup pakai lipstick, pakai wangi2, cleanser,toner, moisturiser, sunblock, bb cream semua sempat tak sempat nak jugak tepek pagi-pagi. Hand cream segala lotion yang wangi i suka.

Consider it as pembawakan ke mengada-ngada?

My new little H, mummy starts browsing beautiful names for another version of H Jr. Stay strong and healthy dear.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Weekend with daddy dah habis.

Sunday was over..

Farah, sorry aku tak jadi pun pegi Damansara. So tak dapat la kita date.. Next time hopefully....

Early Sunday morning, I prepared cheesy macaroni for the kids, then the parent is having  nasi lemak at a warung nearby my house.

Was planning to bring the kids to playland today.. Tapi sebab si emak was enjoying The Day After Tomorrow on HBO, lastnya pukul 3pm baru keluar rumah.

Endup we brought the kids to Reko Land in IOI Mall Puchong only.

Even no pictures to tell the stories but I knew that they were having real fun and fully utilized their daily toddler energies. 

While having dinner at Kenny Rogers, Hannah was fallen asleep. Orang dah nak balik baru dia nak order itu ini nak makan.

Poor my little girl was crying; she refused to go home, nak main kuda lagi. Harraz is already surrender sleeping in baby stroller. So dia dah tak take port.

Meraung anak dara saya sampai ke kereta. Tapi kalau dah comel, meraung pun orang senyum-senyum je tengok. Her with  rambut ikat dua and blue polka dot jeans dress, holding Mr Ephant and milk bottle in hand and crying all the way from basement of the shopping complex to roof top car park......

I noticed a few ppl staring and say comelnya budak ni menangis then smiled at me. huhu...

Its OK girl, next time kita pergi lagi ye... Esok nak sekolah. 

Saya seronok bila tengok anak-anak excited nak pergi jalan. Not even Hannah, her little brother Harraz pun dah tau meaning pergi jalan is time to seronok-seronok. I swear saya sangat-sangat happy.

Sebab saya pun pernah rasa perasaan seronok bila ayah & ummi nak bawa pergi jalan masa kecik dulu.

I bribe them kalau nak main, kena makan dulu. Untuk alas perut pre-lunch at almost 4pm they finished a milo with whole big chicken sausage each of them. Sungguh-sungguh nak main ni.

..........................................................................................

I was working half-day on last Saturday. 

Since daddy was also working and the kids is at nursery, I grabbed the only chance I got for my 'me-time' session.

After quite a while since Harraz was born then only I managed to do facial which is more on body de-stressing and self reward.

Phewwww... I am really satisfied with the treatment and body massage..

Pregnant mother kan... bukan boleh suka suka buat any treatment yang rasa best. Machine yang ada UV la, yang ada radiation la semua kena avoid. Even antiseptic machine pun they not allow.. Baru saya tahu... They replaced with antiseptic loction would do. End up oxygen de-hydration treatment suite me the most. 

I fetch the children at almost 5pm. And I mengelat skip masak dinner too. hehehe...

When daddy balik he dah kunci gate then only I cakap jom dinner kat luar.

My husband said, Abg dah kunci pagar ingatkan boleh makan nasi kat rumah. Cesssss..... I malas la... esok ye kita masak. 

We went out for dinner at Rimba Klasik. MasyaAllah ramainya manusia. Tapi ok la serving laju so no big deal.

There goes a reverse story of my weekend. I am blessed and happy. Alhamdulillah. 

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Hannah the Kak Long.

Hannah cakap adik baru is a girl. 

Well mummy pun ada instinct sama macam awak je ni.

Mummy keluarkan la adik bagi Hannah. Hurmm.. adik belum besar lagi, tak boleh keluar.

Dulu masa nak dapat Harraz, Hannah tak faham lagi. But now we share the excitements together and leaving my Harraz stays blur in his own 'mengada' zone... His precious mummy's boy moments before been called 'Abang Harraz'. I bagi chance, layan kan saja la mengada manja awak...

Yet.. in two weeks times a little strawberry cupcake is five months old in my belly. Nanti kita tanya adik boy ke girl ye. 

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

At one fine rainy day..

Petang semalam hujan sangat lebat. Satu KL tau hujan lebat gila.

As usual bila KL hujan, satu KL akan tau jalan harus jam teruk.

Daddy keje malam sepatutnya. Tapi pukul 2pm daddy dah keluar sebab kena attend training. Lepas tu terus sambung masuk shift sampai esok pagi. Fuhhhh lamanya kan..

I ni bila daddy keje malam dia akan rasa mcm sensitif, sedih lain macam sikit. Agaknya sebab tak nampak tido sekali dalam barisan rasa tak complete. Mengada kan... :D

Saya dari kat ofis was started to think kat mana la kami anak beranak nak makan time hujan ni. Lepas ambik anak-anak dari nursery, Hannah dengan lemah lembutnya bodek I, "Mummy nak makan kat situ boleh?"

Hailam Kopitiam Restaurant! 

Gabra kot nak bawa "The two hyper brilliant toddlers" ni makan kat kedai macam tu, lagi pula time daddy tak de.

I chose to eat at a coffee table guarded with sofas. Tapi set meja yang macam ni letaknya betul-betul depan entrance kedai. Sikit lagi nak rasa kami anak beranak macam public figure bila Hannah and Harraz were put in action!

Hannah dah pandai habiskan a mug of hot chocolate on herself. And she insists to write and draw on the menu notes all the time sampai dapat free la pencil order tu. Harraz is soundlessly enjoying his "home made mee" and fried sausage.

I cakap dekat Hannah, kalau awak behave mummy belanja sweet. Kids will never forget a promise. :) so.... even though tak berapa nak behave, makanya lolypop sorang satu is enough.

And daddy went home at 3am in the morning suddenly. Katanya boss suruh balik. :) Then only I sleep well sampai pagi. 

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it