Its not a LOVE

Being a part of your life has been really influential in my process of becoming myself.

I say more of what I believe.

I am challenged to be sincere and active.

I am happy with fewer material goods.

I believe that my dreams are both cosmic and reachable simultaneously.

I am surrounded in support and love.

Our similarities are as striking and as potent as our differences. You helped me to understand that we must not merge personalities, but rather become ourselves more fully while we support the other’s becoming.

Your uniqueness and the unguessableness of your nature teach me that I am just who I am—not some creation of who I want to be—and that my personality need not be homogenous.

You still surprise me.

You often delight me.

You always teach me.

You care for others.

You always see the good in people.

You think before you speak.

You are funny, impish, and creative.

Thats are all you, but I dont love you.

Honestly I am the way I am I should be. Im sorry... You are more a big brother to me.

Today is Friday

Dear Diary,



Its Friday today.



Aku nak masuk jugak benda yg pu3 masuk tu. Tp td tanya abg, abg ckp jgn masuk. Dia kata mcm mkn duit org bwh kita. Org nak suruh dia jd downline.. Tp dia dah serik la plk. Dia ckp dia dah x nk join benda2 ni sebab dulu dah rugi ribu2.. ala tp saja nak try apa salanya kan.. kita wat experiment. mmmm x tau la. X decide lg cam mana. Tp apa pun thanks ye sbb nasihat kat kita.



Ok tutup cite pasal tu. Eh sabar je la.. Seminggu ni dtg keje goyang kaki je. Apa pun x buat. mmmm bestnya.. nak berangan masuk Agilent jap. Klu la bole kan... Rasa mcm my dream come true je... hahhaha awan2 dah kuar kat kepala. Dush!! Mat Jenin la plk.



come back to reality plzzzz....

Sian kitorg.. hahahaha

Jumaat last week after work we pegi mkn kat Gold Coast. As usual, me n my housemates a.k.a officemates. Hmmm still the same persons actually. ;)
Sampai kat Gold Coast, i got a phone called from Siti. Duk syok2 ckp ngan dia sampai la kat meja nak order food. Apa lagi si pondan itu dengan gediks2 ngan baju sexy dtg la kat kitorg bawak menu. Recommend mcm2 " kat sini specialty ikan. Mcm2 ikan ada. Ikan stim SEDAP.. SEDAP..." Hahaha x leh nak explain cane dia nye intonasi ckp "SEDAP" mesti "SEDAP.. SEDAP" mcm la kitorg x tau kedai tu. Dah biasa dtg. Lagi nak promot.. ntah apa2.. BTW i was still on da phone with ct. Curik2 dengar sebelah telinga...
My friends pun order la. food. Terpengaruh ngan "SEDAP..SEDAP" kitorg pun order la ikan stim. huaa ikan jenahak lg.. antara ikan yg mahal. Pas tu sotong goreng tepung, sayur, telur, n tom yam. Then, aku pun abis ckp phone sbb nak interrupt dlm list order menu. "kita amik air 1 jug je la trus nak. TEMBIKAI OK?"
List menu are : Nasi Putih -3
Ikan Jenahak Stim
Sotong Goreng Tepung-2
Sayur Campur -2
Telur Dadar-2
Tom yam Daging-2
Tembikai juice-1JUG

5 minit kemudian:

"eh korang duit ada bape? kita x kuar duit lg kan" OMG lauk dah order byk. Baru teringat x de duit. Cessssss!!!
apa lagi masing2 korek duit, calculate ada bape... abis syiling sume kira. maisa ada RM11+ pu3 ada RM23.50+ me luckily ada RM40=RM74.50

huhu... scarrynya klu nak byr nnt x cukup. masa order x hengatnye la. main sebut jer... last2 cuak. makan pun takut2.. malu la klu dah kenyang skali duit x cukup.

wat selamba je mkn. masa utk bayar. huhu debor betul... kebetulan maisa ada discount kad 5%. sangat2 diperlukan buat masa ni. FUHHHHH!!! lega. TOTAL RM 66++ x igt exact bape.
lalalalalalalal... happy perut dah kenyang. BLURP!!!

Here is your horoscope for Tuesday, July 31:
You get some stunning (and original) insight into your moods. That's the great thing about being in a funk -- it can actually point the way to some pretty important self-realizations if you know how to use it correctly.

hi!
Just about to jot down something but donno what.
Last weekend i went for a movie with housemates. The Simpsons. Hmm ok ok la.. x la fun sgt. But still ada moral value inside. We ate at Secret Recipe. Baru gaji la kata kn.. Apa lg shopping time!! X de beli apa pun. Mmmm aku beli apa ek smlm... aku beli baju 2 helai. I like those black dress n cardigan.. Pas tu beli sunseed n black soya bean powder. owh ya ada beli sushi for dinner. Yummy...hehehe... Pas tu balik aku g saloon cuci rambut n blow wavy. Comey jugak wat rambut cam tu. Hihihi perasan sndiri.

My happy day but my worst night!!!!

X tau la nape dia wat aku cam ni. Its not my fault. Tp dia sangat kejam to treat me dis way!!!
I HATE HIM!!!!
Its fine. You are nothing to me actually. Just feel like to be loved n no more. You were died, and im gone. Pandai2 la ko nak survive. Pas ni ada masalah jgn cari aku dah. Sattle sndiri... Dah tua dah pun. Bknnya budak2 lg.
THANK YOU!!!! I am a new person starting from today. BE STRONG GIRL!!!