dua garis selari ke tiga

This morning my husb asked "Rasanya mummy dah tak de sangat muntah-muntah macam dulu"

Owh he did noticed.

Yess a closing ceremony of entering my 4 months was so damn terrible. Lima hari MC nak??

Even though this is my 3rd pregnancy the excitements are still the same. 

Saya dah berangan macam mana nak susun tido anak tiga orang. :D

Saya dah berangan lepas ni kena request daddy beli MPV. :D

Saya dah berangan nak habiskan cuti berpantang dekat mana. :D

Saya dah berangan nak belli barang baby itu dan ini.

Jauh nau berangannya.. Kena masa terperasan dek suami saya mesti dia tegur

"uiiii mcm nak tembus pintu tu duk berangan apa?"

hahaha...

My EDD will be on March 17th 2014. Ok counting begin, my little strawberry cupcake i pray u will bake as a yummy delicious strawberry cupcake. :p

InsyaAllah

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Its Sunday! Good moning holiday!

Happy Sunday morning!

Yess I woke up this early on Sunday morning because daddy is on day-shift all over the weekend. I knew it is going a long weekend but me and the kids are insist to stay at home spending our triplet bonded time together. Kids not insist la sebab diorabg bukan faham pun.

Bukan senang nak dapat peluang when daddy is working and mummy is off day.

Especially kalau daddy is keje malam during weekend lagi la kesian. Kami tiga beranak dah sure2 sempat jumpa daddy I can say less than 30 mins in all 24 hours per day. Me and the kids sampai rumah around 6++pm, daddy dah nak keluar pergi kerja. When daddy reach home at 7++am, we already about to go out. This will continue for another four days long before he's off day. 

Time ni la Hannah suka buat statement sentimental bila daddy tak de depan mata dia. Drama tau anak I ni.

I bought 3 ice creams for me, Harraz and Hannah. That little girl asked "mummy tak beli daddy punya ke?" Haishhhhh dah daddy keje, daddy tak dapat la ice cream.

As usual bila daddy keje malam straight away lepas kiss-kiss bye bye daddy nak pergi kerja, kami 3 beranak pun merayap cari dinner. Tah apa2 je mummy rasa kalau nak masak just me and the kids only yang makan. Lagi jimat, cepat dan senang mummy bawak korang makan kat luar saja.

Tapi, kena pasrah dan redha melayan kerenah budak dua orang itu yang sangat hyper and me alone have to control them. Seriously I can say rasa macam dah bersilat dekat kedai tu bila sorang nak makan sorang nak air, bila sorang nak turun kerusi yang sorang ketuk2 meja. Huaaaa sebab tu I dah tak berani nak offer makan kat Old Town. Malu mummy tau anak-anakku sebab end up memang meja kitorang la yang paling happening macam ada farewell dinner 10 orang.

Kebiasaannya Hannah pun akan cakap, "Mummy tu tempat daddy ke? Daddy duduk sini ye?" Seeeeee drama kan anak dara tembam tu. :D

Sooooo bila daddy keje siang and mummy cuti, this is the only chance I can be a "typical wife" preparing what a husband needs when he is going to work. At least I sempat siapkan him drinks with breakfast or lunch. Honestly saying it satisfy me. 

And untuk cover balik keboringan anak-anak tak pergi jalan during weekend, mummy bring them to play ground everyday. Paling tak pun main basikal kat luar. I'd rather to bring them to in-house playland dalam Mcd je sebab boleh makan ice-cream and senang nak control the kids.

There goes me and the kids activities bila daddy keje. Not so happening but yet is meaningful. I belum berani gamble bawa anak-anak tu ke shopping complex; tak terbayang rasanya kalau tahap kena main kejar-kejar. To play safe playground je pun dah cukup sweating.

Owh, esok ada birthday Haziq kat kampung. Sorry ye boy, Makngah tak dapat balik tengok Haziq potong kek Pocoyo. Nanti kalau ada rezeki kita celeb mini belated birthday OK!. InsyaAllah.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

A post to daddy...

Dah lama tak de cerita...

It is just that saya rasa macam nak becerita dengan diri sendiri.

Saya rasa husband kesayangan saya dah banyak berubah. Dan saya pulak rasa saya pun banyak berubah.

To daddy, sebab I dengan yakin daddy takkan baca benda ni. :)

I rasa since you on medical leave, you did help me alot.

And bila I fikir balik macam semua kerja rumah daddy yang buat.

Dari vacuum, mop lantai ,uruskan laundry I admit semua daddy buat. Lama dah kot I tak buat semua tu.

Rasanya mummy cuma masak, cuci pinggan and uruskan anak-anak je. Itu pun you did help me layan kerenah the kids.

Hurmm I am glad you been so nice.. but at the same time i feel guilty if I am not a good wife then.

Kalau you tengok I dah lembik and sometime macam nak tido, you never disturb me at any reason except bila Hannah or Harraz berak. 

Tapi kalau daddy tido, I selalu kacau bila Hannah and Harraz turn up cranky, I rasa tak cukup tangan nak handle.

Kalau sebelum ni I rasa mcm semua benda I kena fikir but now it seems like you yang serabut kepala fikirkan dan uruskan semua sorang-sorang.

Sampai satu tahap I macam tak sampai hati nak minta tolong lagi.. Uwaaaaa...

I do appreciate you painted luar rumah kita sendiri tengah panas.

Hannah tak habis-habis cakap "cantik kan rumah kita daddy cat".

I do appreciate you pergi shopping beli barang-barang untuk event Ahad ni alone. And you siap kan semua households yang I tak teringat pun benda tu kena ada. 

Sebelum ni Hannah selalu marah-marah cakap dengan daddy. That night I cakap dekat Hannah; "jangan la cakap kasar dengan daddy... tak baik. Nanti daddy pergi keje baru kakak tau."

Since that night sikit-sikit Hannah cari daddy. She has been soooo nice to daddy.

Petang semalam daddy jumpa anak-anak dekat nursery sebelum pergi keje. Muka Hannah sedih macam nak menangis daddy tinggal dia. Pagi tadi Hannah bangun mummy bg tau daddy dah balik.

Terus Hannah turun bawah cari daddy..

Seee...... Hannah sayang daddy....

Thank you abg.. Saya sangat-sangat-sangat terima kasih.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

He walks!

He walks! 

Congratulation Muhammad Harraz Nazhan my handsome little boy!

Unfortunately mummy tak dapat tengok one of the sweetest moments in your life dear.

InsyaAllah mummy balik Malaysia nanti Harraz dah boleh kejar mummy.

So, practise a lot ok sayang. Your assignment! 

:)

I miss you sayang. 

I still remember how my dear Hannah started to walk when she was ten months old. 

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

I really wish I could be there for you love.

Assalamualaikum.

Dari semalam mata kiri saya kedip2 macam nak bagi tau sesuatu. Saya dah mula rasa tak sedap hati memikirkan apa benda tak best yang nak jadi.

Allah hu akbar...

Siang tadi video call dengan Hannah, Hannah menangis. Berjurai air mata Hannah menangis sebut mummy. Saya tau dia menangis sebab rindukan mummy, Hannah menangis bersungguh-sungguh. Saya tau dia sedih. Saya kat sini pun menangis bila tengok Hannah macam tu.

Allah hu akbar...

Saya cuba call husband dari pagi tak berjawab, end up terus tak dapat.

I thought mata kedip-kedip tu nak bagi tau nak menangis teruk tadi sebab rindukan anak2, rupanya ada benda lain yang jadi.

Tadi masa saya keluar ke Sagamiono Square, my husband message me through Facebook dia suruh call. Tapi sebab I tak tau macam mana nak login FB kat handphone Jepun ni, dah lewat petang kat bilik baru dapat.

He is hiding something from me. Not only him, but the whole family there is hiding it from me. Saya call tadi tak de sape pun cakap apa-apa..

Endup he told me "tadi abg jatuh, tangan terkehel sikit"

Ok, instinct si isteri ni kuat, tanya lebih sikit finally baru suami saya mengaku bukannya terkehel, tapi patah terkulai....

Ayat direct yang sepatutnya ialah, "tadi abg jatuh tergelincir, patah pergelangan tangan. Tapi tak simen lagi sebab kena refer hospital. Esok pagi baru abg pergi hospital tapi kalau dah tak tahan sangat malam nanti abg pergi la".

Nah!.. ini dia berita tak best yang nak jadi rupanya.

Sesungguhnya saya sangat susah hati dan risau sebab saya kenal suami saya macam mana bila dia sakit.

At this moment, how I wish I could be there taking care of my husband and my babies.

I tau my husband adalah sangat jarang sakit. Else, suami saya adalah seorang yang sangat kuat lawan sakit. Tapi bila sekali sakit means adalah betul-betul sakit. 

And now saya tau dia memang dia tengah sakit tapi saya tak ada di sisi nak membantu.

Ya Allah Ya Rabbi, Berikan kekuatan kepada suami ku dan anak-anak ku ketika kami berjauhan. Kau berikan kesihatan yang baik kepada mereka, juga Kau lindungilah mereka daripada segala keburukan. Amin...

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Never judge me of leaving family just because of work. Of course it is a hard decision.

Assalamualaikum.

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. The reason is I keeping busy with kerja, kids and family.

Yes, I need to go to Japan bringing RM50k project of my company for almost two months. Instead of only 2 weeks at first, MD said 2 months.

If I am not a wife and a mother yet, of course kepala fikir nak berjalan je. End of April is Japan Golden Week, they are having one week holiday. Kononnya, lucky me sebab dapat tengok Sakura.

Preparation? I can say -80% sebab x de start apa pun lagi. Everything super last minute, dan saya sangat-sangat tak de masa nak prepare anything.
Visa procedure to Japan je pun cukup lah payahnya. Macam-macam surat, the original one from Japan they need. Because of entry to Japan for reason of work and meeting, all expenses must bare by the company. Menunggu la Fedex post.

I need a short and quick travel guide but I have no time to do Google.

RM50k yang saya kena bawa tu je dah cukup sesakkan kepala saya. Honestly saya takut saya tak bole buat. Pray for me friends.

Dictionary! I need a dictionary because I will travel alone and English is not their mother tongue. Saya yakin akan jadi macam ayam dengan itik angguk2. Pun belum beli!

Currency rate! My another point of worries. Yen sume main ribu-ribu. Kalau sebut mesti kita rasa banyaknya kan. Tapi kalau makan lunch set bodo-bodo pun dah ¥20,000, kira sendiri lah.

Owhhhh 1st Birthday Harraz, mummy not with you syg. Also not me to bring you for 1yr jab. For sure daddy must take note!

I am very sad when it reminds me of leaving them for a while. Then, when every time I nak pack, or do list up I will cry 1st. Maka tak jadi nak tulis, end up langsung tak prepare.

Hurm.. Tomorrow is going to Teluk Intan jumpa ayah. My father kena quarantine sbb dah nak pilihan raya ni. Bahasa senangnya, ayah tak boleh keluar kawasan.

Monday packing, Tuesday balik kampung, Rabu jalan. I not only need to pack my stuffs, but also for my children. Mana dgn baju, stock pampers, susu, sabun bedak segala, ubat pn kena standby. Of course toys a bit. Banyak keje kan. But I still do nothing.

Ok lah dah penat.
Good night!
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Pot pet Hannah.

Satu-satu saya sayang nenek

nenek-nenek buka pintu, saya balik pukul satu.

Mummy: nenek tua tak?

Hannah: tak!

Sengih sampai telinga nenek Hannah.

Kombinasi lagu nenek bongkok tiga dengan aci aci buka pintu. Suka hati dia je...

satu-satu sayang pak lang..

satu-satu sayang atok wan

satu-satu sayang mummy

satu-satu sayang daddy

satu-satu sayang adik Harraz

satu-satu sayang atam

satu-satu sayang atok

satu-satu sayang nenek

satu-satu sayang uncle

satu-satu sayang aunty

satu-satu sayang paksu.

semuanya satu! Kesimpulannya Hannah ingat dan kenal semua saudara terdekat. Turutan tu ikut suka dia mana yang dia ingat dulu. Tapi selalunya Pak lang la yang no 1.

Mummy sedang kemas groceries yang baru di beli. 

Hannah: Apa tu?

Mummy: Bawang putih.

Hannah: Nak!

Mummy: Nak, ambik la.

Hannah: Mummy la makan dulu.

Glup!

Hannah cucu sape?

Cucu atok!

Hannah anak sape?

Anak daddy. Anak mummy.

cucu-cucu tak dapat cari. nenek tua banyak sakti.

acik-acik buka pintu, saya balik pukul satu. tak mo takut burung hantu.

kapal terbang tinggi di awan. (sambil buat gaya)

Hannah: Mummy lukis Boboy. (ayam fav daddy)

Mummy ni sangat la pandai melukis.

Hannah: Tu bukan boboy! tu itik nenek.

Dang!

Daddy marah Hannah.

Hannah lari kat mummy;

Hannah: Mummy cakap Paklang, Daddy buat.

Hamboih!!!

Hannah kena gigit kat sekolah. Rebutkan lolypop Hannah tak dapat, pipi tembun tu jadi mangsa.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Choose either one or grab all?

Assalamualaikum.

This post may dedicated to all career women, a mummy of kids age 2 years and 11 months old and a wife with no maid at home.

Yes it describes me myself.

I would like to know, how these career women commit with work loads and handle their marriage life with toddler and baby, husband and house chores.

Obviously for a lady in that situation will find it is hard to stay in the office for working late. Agree??

As for me myself, balik lambat je I dah worry the kids should be hungry. The first thing that crossed my mind.

I am a lady engineer, design for PCB electronics equipments. So work loads normally came by season. Ada masa free gila, ada masa busy macam nak gila. And I believed this kind of work trends sama macam semua PCB designers out there.

Sorry, I tak tau trend keje lain macam mana. 

Does title for working late job does not meant for lady? Or ladies cannot be engineer once they got married and have kids and babies. Or all mummies must hire a maid if they still want to commit as lady engineer and working late?

Not fair! but that is the real situation. 

Different story bila the kids dah start sekolah. Then lady engineers need to wait until the kids sekolah only baru boleh nak berdedikasi???

If you attend for any interview, the 1st issue they will ask, can you working late? May i know your kids age? They also can predict if you still answer YES, but your children are only 2 years old and having baby. Or else they will ask do you have maid? What happen if you balik lambat and the kids at nursery?

What do you think the result will be?

It is not about qualification issue, even you passed the qualifying test. They just also understand that you cannot stay back to commit with work. 

So better they choose a guy instead.

Poor lady. :(

Husband? 

Kalau mak sorang pun boleh rasa nak pergi toilet pun tak sempat bila jaga anak dua, inikan pulak husband. I pernah tanya my husband, boleh tak kalau i tinggalkan Hannah and Harraz with you one whole day? White flag rise up! Surrender!

And also macam mana when your husband is working night shift. nobody can take care the children now. Sanggup nak tinggalkan anak dekat nursery sampai esok pagi? not me! 

What i can say, saya bersabar dan bertahan. Work load kat office cuba settlekan sepantas mungkin sebelum 5.30pm. If terpaksa i bring home only for weekend. 

Tapi, nak tuka keje lain tu rasanya belum cerah harapan. Of course saya tak salahkan anak-anak. Lahirnya mereka ke dunia, membawa rahmat dan rezeki yang besar kepada keluarga. Term rezeki itu luas.. Kaji sendiri dan selidik rezeki yang mereka bawa. :)

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Hard time for me and her.

Assalamualaikum people!

Hannah is already 2 years old. I am graduated with my 2 years of breast feeding course for her.

Now i knew why the statement was like:

Only susu ibu until 6months old and do continue until 2 years old.

It doesnt mentioned only susu ibu until 2 years old. 

So i do believe i did it correctly by treating Hannah as casual breast feeding since she was 8 months old. 

Of course i am passionate with my breast feeding mission. Just that, based on my observation, mostly exclusively breastfeeding babies will have difficulties to consume milk as in everyday normal routine as other formula milk babies. Normally they will dependent on vitagen, susu kotak, fresh milk or any other expensive supplements. 

But how about when kita tak de bajet nak provide them with those kind of 'such milk replacement'? 

Kids need more calcium to grow up especially for their bones and teeth developments. 

Luckily my little girl finally loves her new Dutch Lady Biasa 123 and all the time mummy's milk very much! Dua-dua dia layan, mana la tak gebu kan. :)

...................................................................................................................

Sooooooo now, I rasa it is enough period for Hannah to enjoy her breast feeding moments. I need to wean her off. What should i do???

Seriously i can say it is really really hard. 

Hannah menangis..

Hannah merajuk..

Hannah sedih..

Hannah tak boleh tido..

Mummy also rasa bersalah..

Mummy also feeling sad.

Mummy also started to miss the moment to breast feed her again and again.

But she is growing and she will learn. And Mummy also must keras hati.

I am sorry sayang, I have to do this. You are a big girl now, shy-shy and no cry! It is not because i don't love you anymore. Mummy still love you and will always love you until the end of my life.

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it

Pizza suka hati is how to cheat at cooking.

These few days mummy so lazy to do typical cooking. Apesal tah.. 

Yesterday was super hectic! I planned for my 1st attempt of home made pizza.

Did some Googling on recipe and list up all the needed ingredients in note.

Nak jadi cerita, yesterday evening was heavily raining meaning heavy traffic too.

I nak jugak-jugak make the pizza so even though i knew the time was almost 6.30pm, I went to Giant hypermarket just to do some quick groceries shopping.

I reached home at around 6.40pm. Cepatkan?? Cuba kalau leisure shopping, empat jam pun belum tentu kaluar dari kedai. :)

I did brought sooooo many types of bags with me too. 

Lappy bag, cooler bag, handbag and a few of Giant plastic bags of course.With rushing mode I ran trough the lift and once i reached in front of the door than only i noticed i don't have the house key with me. 

-Interesting!- Phewwwwwww!! Uwaaa rasa nak menangis.

And I need to pick up the kids too which also with their nursery bag some more. With only the two hands I have, I don't think that I am super gagah to carry all the bags plus my 9kg little boy in hand. No choice, I go down and put all my stuffs at one of an Indian groceries shop there before picking up the babies.

Bertapa lah kami tiga beranak kat kedai runcit akak India tu while waiting for Mr Daddy right away from Klang nun. Dekat kan! hoh! End up we; the whole family masuk rumah sharp 8pm.

What happened to my "1st attempt pizza" kononnya??

Daddy said, " Kalau tak jadi macam Dominos Pizza macam mana?" 

-I just don't care!-

I forced my husband to bring out our oven from the 'keeping room' as i need to prepare for the topping materials. I believed after 1st sample, husband pun dah boleh buat sendiri.

So true, i only did for one piece then the rest was finished by him.

In a mean time, I bribed the kids with Cheesedale Cheese slice. They love cheese, so it help them to stay busy operating on the cheese.

Instead of using pizza plain dough, i couldn't find any instant Nan bread for the pizza base. What i did was, i manipulated the recipe by using instant capati. More healthier konon because it made of high fiber of capati flour. I guess!

My bento for lunch today is Kerepot crispy pizza suka hati.

Kerepot sebab saya letak dalam tupperware kecik. :)

Cuba teka macam mana Hannah makan pizza? She ate like digging a treasure hunt and left me the crispy part of the capati. 2 set tau!

Success doesn't come to you…you go to it